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journey to the unkown

It was not as bad as I thought it would be. A few months ago, I was very scared to travel to that place I am not familiar with it. Scary thoughts of being lost, or being attacked by goons would always come across my mind. I never thought I could do it. But I was wrong about these negative thoughts. The whole experience went out well. 

I recently read a book about “biased expectations”. Biased expectations are negative thoughts we would create in our minds. Its like negative expectations that things would go badly because we do not have enough confidence in ourselves. That is exactly what I had before the trip. I was very scared that I would not make it because I did not have enough faith in myself that I could do it.

But I was very proud because I proved to myself that I was wrong with my biased expectations.  

 For one thing, I did not get lost and I made it alive! I traveled alone but it was okay. I slept during the entire trip and it was very comfortable. My cousin fetched me when I arrived so it was good to know that I will not get lost. After changing into my “corporate outfit”, we had breakfast. I had pancakes and hot chocolate, my favorite! But I was not able to appreciate my food because I was nervous for the next things to come.

After the breakfast, my cousin accompanied me to the building that I was supposed to go to so, I was very happy upon knowing that I won’t get lost. Haha! The building was very tall, I had to take the elevator to go to the 7th floor. The next things happened really fast and it was over before I knew it. It was not bad. I honestly answered all the questions in straight english and I did not stutter! It was a very big accomplishment and I did not expect that I would be able to do it. I was also happy with the practical exam. They asked me to design, color, and edit in photoshop. I was confident that I could do it and I actually enjoyed taking the exam :) I was glad that I was able to finish everything that they asked me to do. 

I had to tell you guys about my outfit. I think I was a bit over dressed. Haha! The people there were just laid back and casual. I wanted to laugh at myself wearing the black slax that I just bought and the black stilletoes I wore for graduation. I wish I just wore my jeans and flat shoes or sandals. Oh well, I can’t turn back time :) At least they could see that I did an extra effort to dress properly. Haha! 

When afternoon came, I finished everything that I had to do so I immediately went to the mall to reward myself. I went to the mall alone but I did not get lost. Haha! I texted my friend Xeanne to meet me there because she recently resides in the city. Good thing she was available and we met at starbucks. It was her treat because she recently got a job! :) We spend the entire afternoon catching up with each other’s lives and we exchanged gossips about our high school classmates. Haha! We’ve been classmates since kindergarten but we went to separate schools during college. However, we still hang out every during semestral breaks, christmas, and during summer. It was good to catch up with an old friend again. Its funny because when we were just kids, we would talk about shows on Disney channel and all those kids stuff. But now, we were already talking about our classmate’s babies, work, salary, her plans for med school and all those “adult stuff”. I realized that we were no longer kids anymore and our live are already different. But despite all these changes I am glad that my childhood friends are still there to remind me of the wonderful childhood years that we once had. Talking to them makes me feel like I am a child again and they would take away all the stress that adult life caused me.

After our never-ending talk, we had to say our goodbyes and I headed home. It was a long trip back home, I already wanted to sleep so that I would not think of the things that might turn out regarding the said trip. But no thanks to starbucks, the caffeine in my body kept me wide awake during the trip. I headed for home together wit my hopes and thoughts of what will happen after that journey.

Will that journey be the start of a new chapter in my life? That I do not know. But one thing is for sure. That journey made me realize that I could do it. It gave me the confidence that I lacked and it gave me new experiences that would make me even more confident with myself. Whatever the result may be, I was glad I went on that journey.

That’s it for now. The journey continues :)

PS. I did not have any pictures during the trip because I did not bring my camera. I was afraid that it might get stolen. That’s how paranoid I was prior to the trip.